Topics at this blog tend to be kind of heavy, so I thought I might lighten things up today. Only I can't.
I'm teetering on a new personal record— but not the kind you want plastered on the wall at the gym.
I recently tipped the scales at more than 200 pounds for the first time ever. I weighed 206 to be exact. That's roughly 46 pounds heavier than I was in 2011 and 50 pounds heavier than college.
Both times, doctors told me the meds I was taking were partly to blame. The drugs I was taken in 2011 took away my appetite to the point I could only eat a few bites at meal time. The fist full of pills I'm currently taking, however have caused my appetite to go off the charts.
I have to take some responsibility here. I'm the one who ate like a bird or inhaled food like a pig, but the meds didn't help and probably hurt.I don't recall exactly what meds I was taking in 2011 when I all but quit eating. I think I was on Abilify and Remeron, among other drugs.
I just remember it was an incredibly difficult time for depression and anxiety. I had no appetite. None at all. I was so skinny my wife wondered if I had an eating disorder and several people thought I had cancer. One friend later told me she thought I was "manorexic."
